I'm Gunna Let Him Fly, Fly OoOh (I'm...gunna let him fly)

So, it's 8:30am...I'm fresh out of the shower and feeling majorly inspired! I don't know what it is (well...ya I do) but I am bursting at the seams with energy! I almost feel crazy. I want to run around and jump and hug everyone in sight. It's creepin' me out a bit lol. 

So, here's what I want to get out today....

It is no mystery that God speaks to me through music. While I was taking a shower I couldn't get the Let Him Fly song by the Dixie Chicks out of my head. In all honesty this song has been haunting me for like the past month (lol I actually like the song, but for the context of this blog we will use the word haunting).

There is a particular person in my life that causes me a lot of...what's the word...discomfort. I love this person, but at the same time I find it almost impossible to love them. No matter how hard I try to accept them, they seem to do everything in their power to bug the hell out of me. I don't understand hardly anything they do, and wonder if they actually like making people feel bad. Talking to them is like talking to a brick wall. Nothing I say or do is right in their eyes, and lie after lie seems to spill from their mouth. It's extremely frustrating! Especially since they don't see, or at least don't seem to see, what it is they are doing. 

Now, I'm a firm believer in karma and know that whatever it is this person is doing has nothing to do with me. It's not my job to change this person, and it certainly is not my job to punish them. Yes, they bring out the worst in me...but when it comes down to it, they can't actually make me act a certain way. It is my own choice to react the way I do.

So, here's the major question: How do I love someone I can't stand? How am I suppose to accept the things they are doing when I feel so strongly against them? 

Praise the Lord, because I have been given (yet again) a simple answer... 

Just do it. Accept them for everything they are, and let them live their life the way they want to. Let go of the ties I feel I have to this person. There is no rule book that says just because someone is in your family you have to hang out with them. Love them from a distance. Do all you can to be happy in their presence, and don't allow them to bring their negativity down on you.

I know that every weakness I am faced with is actually a blessing in disguise. If I can truly accept that weakness then I will be made stronger for it. It's like when you work out...you feel that burn, that pain in your muscle...all that pain represents is the building of strength. 

It goes the same for any problem we are faced with. God wouldn't put you through something you couldn't handle. So, and I know this seems silly, but be thankful for the problem! God is showing the problem to you so that you can move up and away from it. Where you are weak, He is strong. Whether you see it or not, everything in your life is a blessing. Nothing is there by accident. The world is this great design, and all we have to do is live the best we can. 

As for me, yes I am having this "problem," but in the midst of it I honestly feel joyful. Right now I really don't think anything could bring me down. What I am going to do is just go out into my day and do all the things that make me happy. Yoga, here I come! 

Here is the main part of that song that really spoke to me:

Ain't no talking to this man

Ain't no pretty other side

Ain't no way to understand, the stupid words of pride.

Cuz it would take an acrobat, and I already tried all that

I'm gunna let him fly....

I am no longer going to try and figure this person out. The reasons behind their actions are unimportant. What they do is on them. I love them, and in loving them I am going to let them go...because the relationship we have as of now is not a healthy one. I am leaving it in the hands of God, and I pray that I am given the strength to accept this situation. (And, in praying that, I already know that I have the strength...ah...relief!)

Okay nOw - Yoga here I come! :)